You Look Lonely. Maybe you should move on, and somebody will love you even more.

Maybe I’m over reacting but I really am not happy with my life and the way it seems to be going right now. I feel like none of my friends get along and it really stresses me out because I feel like I’m constantly stuck in the middle of constant bullshit and it’s hard to make everyone happy when everybody has a different point of view. It makes me feel like a shitty person and a shitty friend. It actually makes me depressed that I have absolutely nobody to talk to and I have to resort to venting on tumblr. I’m unhappy with my job I feel like I’m going to be there forever because my college won’t even let me back in and I have to write an appeal. Why waste my time when I don’t even know if I’m even going to get back in. I feel alone because nobody understands how horrible I feel. I’m 18 and I work at Burgerking everyday no other jobs ever call back and I feel like I applied to everyplace in the world and it’s super frustrating and a horrible empty feeling. I make shit money and I can’t even make it past Tuesday and I’m stuck with 53 cents in my bank account and a couple pennies in my wallet. And i don’t even spend money only on gas really because I drive everywhere I never get a break I even drove on my 18th birthday cause nobody has a car and nobody gives me gas money and I feel like I waste all this money and nobody appreciates anything I do. Nobody ever thanks me ever for anything and I go out of my way all the time to just make my friends happy. I don’t know maybe I’m over thinking everything but I feel so out of it lately and it’s really making me upset. I should start thinking about myself more and then maybe I’ll be happy but it’s hard.

Sorry I haven’t been posting on here, my grandfather died a couple days ago and I haven’t even had time for anything. so YA!

I don’t understand how you can smile all day long, but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change, but the people in them do. How you can love so innocently, but it can turn into anger so quickly. How your best friend can become your worst enemy or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it hurts just the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How the smell of a person stays with you even when they’re gone. How people make promises and bare their souls to someone, despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives cause it’s just easier then working things out.